Wednesday, February 20, 2013

since you've asked

Let me tell you a little bit about my health.
Ten years ago, almost to the date, I got really sick flying back to Scotland. What should have taken me a couple of hours turned into a two day journey, due to snow at a London airport! (Every time I'm in London and it snows, I laugh because it is truly ridiculous that everything shuts down but on the other hand I think of people, like myself all those years ago, who end up sitting somewhere at the airport and I feel terribly sorry.)
No-one knew what had happened to my body - I went straight to bed and basically didn't get up for a month. Doctors couldn't figure out what was wrong so they filled me up with antibiotics until they finally tested my blood about a month later. Three months after that flight I went back to Austria as I still didn't have the energy or strength to return to work. To cut a long story short, a month later I bumped into my friend's dad who is a GP and after he asked me what happened (my face was completely covered in cystic acne and my skin felt like it was on fire), he sat me down and did a blood test there and then. Turned out that not only had the antibiotics killed of the bacteria inside my body, but pretty much everything else too. The result was candida. So for three months I went on a super strict candida diet, which meant no sugar and no starches. As a lot of food turns into that I had to cut out any form of grain(bread, rice, pasta, cereal, ...), sweets, fruit and alcohol. Apart from the diet I went on vitamin supplements and on the pill to rebalance my hormones (everything was out of whack!). It took 2.5 years until my blood results were back to normal!
I will never forget the feeling of waiting for blood results, it is the most nervous I have ever been in my life and although I trusted God to be in control, a lot of the times you are plagued with feeling that your life was coming to an end. Seriously weird times! It is a tricky thing when people can't see that you're sick, in addition to feeling completely useless you have to excuse yourself and fight people's opinions as to what they think you're doing (lazy, pretending, etc). Being in Christian circles it's even worse as some stupid people will come up and tell you that you're not believing enough to be made whole! Oh yeah, I experienced it all :)

Anyway when I moved to Australia I let the pill run out and as your diet in a hot country is pretty much salad based I had hardly any digestive or skin issues. It was never perfect, but due to constant sunshine it was alright I guess.
Cut to 2.5 years later and I moved to London and BOOM poor nutrition, especially poor food standards will get the best of you! If it wouldn't have been for a friend who happens to be a nutritionist, who knows what I would have done! She confirmed the candida and explained to me that more or less what happened is that not only was the candida overgrowth back but I had developed the next level which is leaky gut syndrome.
Back to candida cleanse it was. In addition she told me to stay away from dairy and gluten and she gave me a long list of supplements from a good multivitamin (yes I said good, store bought wont cut it as a lot of vitamin pills/capsules lack certain resources for your body to absorb the vitamins - you might just be paying for expensive pee ladies and gentlemen!) to milkthistle to essential omegas to good bacteria to repopulate your intestinal flora.
It takes months for your skin to heal but eventually it does. The better it gets the more you let go of your diet and believe that finally you will be over this.
Ever since then I have cut out as much dairy and gluten as possible - apart from tour, everything goes out the window when you travel as you don't feed yourself :)

Two years ago it all came back when I lived in Salzburg and looking back it had a lot to do with how depressed I was and eating the wrong things. For the first time in years and years I went to see a dermatologist who was basically laughing in my face when I told him that I think it is eating related. Talk about making a girl feel insecure and cry when she's already down and out! He prescribed a cream and told me to just wash my face with water and stay away from make up.
Skin cleared up and I limited myself to a diet but not super strict.

So when everything went pear shaped in November I completely crashed. My face was covered in spots and since I don't use make up anymore(more on that tomorrow) it was a treat to go to work every morning, trying to cover up my face with my scarf as much as I could.
The last thing I wanted to do was go and see a doctor for I have yet to meet a normal doctor who will go to the root of the problem! The only doctor who didn't laugh at me when I told him my story was the guy at the allergy centre in June. He even told me that it all makes sense! I wish everyone could listen to what patients have to say the way he did. Reason enough to try and go the natural way?!

More tomorrow x

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

phone photos from the last wee while

Sitting down to write has become a battle, not that I haven't got the time to do so, I just feel rather uninspired lately. All my time and energy is going into feeding myself (long story short. my poor gut had a major break down in November and my skin - always the first to suffer - has taken a beating unequalled to anything I've ever experienced). As I am adamant to solve this naturally, I had a massive change in lifestyle. Maybe I'll feel inspired to write down my whole story later, until than you'll most likely find me researching candida diets, living a healthy life style, how to feed myself during my vegan lent season, etc. Interesting and time consuming!
Anyway not to bore you, here are a few photos from Austria and back here in London :)
RinglRingl lady on a swing :)
 feeling three years old, watching the snow fall
 Miss K and her ride
Miss E :)

spent an hour there last week with my pastorate peeps. nothing quite like the presence of God!!
 along the river
silly little brother
with my favourites far away I had to bring them closer :)  

pretty coloured houses in Londontown.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Salzburg surf

When I was in Salzburg last week we went for a walk along the Almkanal and walked past the "wave" we surfed in the summer (evidence to be found here!). Seems like a million weeks away and all that snow makes me wonder how on earth we ever went into the water! Love the seasons in Austria, you do get the best of everything!

So long Almkanal, see you in July x

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

pretty Northamptonshire

At the beginning of the year I escaped the city to visit my friend Hannah and her family.
I went for lots of walks around the country side, due to the flooding around Christmas time I saw lots of mirror images. One day we had a crazy blue sky (almost had forgotten what it looked like after months in the dungeon haha) and the sun was about to set, way too pretty not to share!


Thanks for having me Tibbles, was great catching up with you all x

Sunday, February 10, 2013

phone photos from the last while

on my way to church... dramatic weather over the river
write it on your heart and act it out every single day.
 lots of knots
 wet wet common - running proofed to be tricky that day!
 two of my Vienna favs :)

blurry sunset over  High Street Kensington
 garage door in Linz :)
found on the back of a barn in Salzburg - very happy farmer??
 clothes swap party with all my favourites!
afternoon walks with Ruth, Lisl and Miss E in the snow

family time ahahaha

Friday, February 1, 2013

the fight against food waste

Last week saw the launch of Enough Food #IF.
One of the aspects that there is not enough food in this world (or let's say fairly distributed, there is more than enough food in this world!) is food waste.
Tristram Stuart does an amazing job in breaking it down and explaining it in this video. Some of these numbers will shock and surprise you, be warned it's a sad reality we live in!


It is way too easy to throw out food, to use everything means you need to plan and get creative. I get a box of organic veggies every single week and as the produce is seasonal I had to come up with seven different ways to cook cabbage recently :)
As with everything in our world, if we all play our parts we can make a change.
You can still sign up and be part of the Enough Food for everyone IF campaign here.
Happy weekend x

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

American Apparel textile repurposing

I've always loved American Apparel and their philosophy.
This is taking it one step further and I couldn't be more excited about it as it brings together fashion and sustainability!



It is just as exciting as when Nudie made this video explaining their recycled pair of jeans :)
World changers!